I seemed to be waiting an inordinately long time for my pre-appointment visit with the nurses (the dreaded weighing chair), and so I took some time for people watching in the over-crowded
waiting room. Over-crowded because in the three weeks since I was last there, the contractors have moved in, blocked off the main corridor access for the out-patients department, and put up a wall where once there was ample seating, and thus reduced the waiting area in the busiest out-patient departments to less than half the space...chaos, and so unrecognisable that I walked straight through the place, after taking a double look in confusion, only to find myself in OP2, wondering how I'd got there without walking through OP1.
The first thing I noticed were all the new faces with ID badges, shiny new interns bustling about. Some over-brimming with confidence, and looking like they'd settled right in....others looking like they still didn't know where they where, why they were there or what was happening....I reminded myself to ask specifically for the senior registrar...just in case I was unfortunate enough to be allocated to one of the latter. Another thing that struck me about the female interns was that they all seemed to be surgically attached to their handbags...every time they came out of the consultation room, to go to the nurses station in order to collect the next patient's file, the handbag was there, hanging off the shoulder. Is this some sub-conscious comfort thing among young female interns....or is there some major crime spree going around the hospital? If the thief was foolish enough to steal my bag he'd be sorely disappointed to find a wallet packed full of old receipts, instead of money; a microchip scanner for dogs; and very old mobile phone, due to make its debut on the Antiques Roadshow sometime soon.
One other guy who drew my attention was just wearing the most fantastic outfit. He had a very well-worn pair of tan Cuban heels, boot-cut denims and checked shirt. All topped off with a beautifully cut green wool jacket, a beautifully ornate pocket-watch & chain and the obligatory stetson. When he informed his wife he was going outside for some fresh air, I'm fairly sure he was actually going to check their horses, no doubt tied to a hitching post, out there in the car park somewhere. Wonderfully eccentric, and he pulled it off really well, you couldn't help admire the care that had gone into putting it all together. Really wish I'd had the courage to strike up a conversation with him and his wife, as I'm sure they'd have been just as interesting as their clothing suggested. She had the boot-cut jeans, checked shirt and a neckerchief, and even if they'd sat opposite ends of the waiting room from each other you couldn't help but pair them up.
After an hour and half of not hearing the nurses call my name, I tapped one on the shoulder. "
I promise you this isn't a hurry up, as I can see how busy you guys are, but I came in at 2.15pm, and you guys are usually very efficient at calling patients in the the pre-appt weigh-in, so I'm just wondering if my file got missed?" She apologised and went to see where my file could be, and immediately came back, blushing with embarrassment. She had indeed, by mistake put my file on the wrong pile, and they had all totally missed it. The led me straight to the dreaded weighing chair, and we're graceful enough to stay silent as they noted the increase in the last few weeks....I really must get off this *
I'm still recovering* trick, and cop on to stopping the slide before it gets away from me!
But, if nothing else, it shows that it pays to know how the system works...or I might well have found myself sitting for many more hours before anyone noticed my misplaced patient file.
The new registrar, who called me within 10 minutes of my visit to the nurses room, seems like a nice guy, and I think we can work well together. He was highly recommended by the nurses, and they know me well enough by now to tell me the truth.
He did initially start off by explaining the bog-standard basics of how the thyroid works, what it does, about TSH, the pituitary gland etc...I let him continue for a minute or two, and when I started finishing sentences for him he laughed, and said "
you obviously know all of this already". I replied that whilst I wasn't a doctor, my thyroid had pretty much consumed my life for the past few years, in both literature, education & research, as well as the hard-to-ignore physical symptoms. He seemed genuinely pleased to hear this.
I guess he has to cover all the bases when he sees a patient for the first time, so fair play to him for explaining things in a way that even the most confused patient could follow. Although he was preaching to the converted, I'm delighted that he went to the effort.
He was really pleased with my latest blood results, as indeed he should have been, and when I tentatively suggested that the TSH of 1.1 was pretty much perfect he drew circles around my results, on the page, and said that my current results are exactly what we need to aim for, and then strive to maintain...all in all, so far so good.
He asserted that as far as my height, weight, build etc were concerned he reckoned that my current dose of 150mcg was the right dose to stay on, but obviously regular blood tests, certainly in the early days post-op, would quickly pickup any signs that a dose change may be needed. And also that if I lost significant weight in the future, my dose would likely be reduced (another big positive for losing weight!)
I mentioned the occasional dizzy spells, which are getting less regular, and he said alas that was indeed down to the Eltroxin...but as long as they were only every now and then, there was no need to investigate further. However, if they did escalate, I should go straight to my GP and get it checked out. He explained that in a normal person, with a correctly functioning thyroid, the thyroid levels would naturally rise and fall throughout any 24 hour period, and now that the actions of my thyroid were being replaced wholly by medication, there was no way to naturally mimic the daily peaks and troughs of T4/FT4 demand, only to judge how much I'd need and hope it was distributed as needed...and that is why the occasional dizzy spell is experienced.
And on the same subject, I brought up the suggestion of taking my Eltroxin at night, before I go to bed, instead of messing around in the morning, and having to stay food & drink free for up to an hour after taking my meds...and he categorically said that no, I really should take them in the morning...as one of the peak demand times for T4/FT4 was at the beginning of the day, when you get up and do stuff and need to feel well enough to be active. And by taking the Eltroxin at night, I risked insomnia and sleeplessness from having the full dose of T4 in my system, and then also having it depleted somewhat by the morning when I needed it most. If what he's saying is true, then it makes sense. So for now, until I can find some compelling research articles that say otherwise, I will dutifully follow his instructions, and continue to think about ways of doing it that I will find sustainable for the rest of my life.
We discussed my desire to start a family, and he said that what he would want to see are three consistently good blood test results. My first set of bloods, post-op were 'OK', my latest set were 'Perfect'. If the next set were also 'Perfect' we can discuss it further, but he would prefer to wait for a third 'Perfect' set before giving us a definite green light. Due to the fact that we *will* have further thyroid level complications during pregnancy, so he would prefer us to be as close to perfect as possible, which should make things easier to control when they start going bad again.
And once again, it seems our wedding anniversary weekend will conclude with a visit to hospital.
Regular readers might remember that we got married in a local hospital, as a quirk of our county's civil registration procedure.
Last year we spent the morning of our
first wedding anniversary, with me having a CT Scan done - gosh was that only a year ago? It seems that SO much has happened as a result of
that CT Scan and the results it yielded. Here I am 11 months later, without a thyroid gland and I feel like that was a lifetime ago.
Our second wedding anniversary will most likely be spent having a long weekend away in the camper van, touring some wild & beautiful part of Ireland, with no fixed agenda...but we'll have to hurry back on the Tuesday, in time for my next Endo appointment on the 31st August. Hospitals and wedding anniversaries really *are* starting to become intrinsically linked, but as long as they are routine appointments, and not visits to A &E, then I'm happy to continue that trend!